Hey all,
I just thought I'd put something out there about tough times. Recently, I spoke with a friend of mine that I knew in High School and we talked about how we had lost our parents to cancer. For him, he lost his father to bone cancer in a very horrific and elongated ordeal. I lost my grandparents, one after the other. My grandmother had lung cancer that metasticized. My grandfather had bladder cancer that metasticized as well. I really had no father around and my mother was useless and abusive. I had to be strong and hold up to so much horror that I think I blocked it all out. I had to take it because I had to protect my sister. After talking things over with my friend, I started to recall things, such terrible things that I had forgotten. I am hurting so bad right now. I never got a chance to feel anything way back then. I had to pretend I was OK so I could keep caring for them. The disease accelerated while the level of horror increased. I can barely see the screen through my tears. I want any of you out there that are knee deep in some **** right now to know that you are not alone. I don't know what kinds of challenges you have in your life, but I love you and wish you peace.
I just thought I'd put something out there about tough times. Recently, I spoke with a friend of mine that I knew in High School and we talked about how we had lost our parents to cancer. For him, he lost his father to bone cancer in a very horrific and elongated ordeal. I lost my grandparents, one after the other. My grandmother had lung cancer that metasticized. My grandfather had bladder cancer that metasticized as well. I really had no father around and my mother was useless and abusive. I had to be strong and hold up to so much horror that I think I blocked it all out. I had to take it because I had to protect my sister. After talking things over with my friend, I started to recall things, such terrible things that I had forgotten. I am hurting so bad right now. I never got a chance to feel anything way back then. I had to pretend I was OK so I could keep caring for them. The disease accelerated while the level of horror increased. I can barely see the screen through my tears. I want any of you out there that are knee deep in some **** right now to know that you are not alone. I don't know what kinds of challenges you have in your life, but I love you and wish you peace.